script OK. I've got a ham sandwich here. Is it energy or is it information? where in the field of activity can you derive pleasure. I keep wanting to run into kate. school made more sense in high school. oil, chemical and atomic workers int'l union. find some teeth, buddy. donald judd had teeth. there's a part of me that goes out and meets something in each of these things that I see. why am I so eager to identify? I don't think it's ever been exhausted, that sense of potential. life as an uncoverable aesthetic phenomenon. there is no illusionism in that work. that is real blood. this is consistent in Athey's work. I'm not interested in ideas of shock. confusing ideas of community and identity. you agree to have sex with someone and you are objectified. that is the coming together. warhol and the transferrance of risk. snapshot. that sense of I'll shoot you and you'll shoot me. the sense that the world exists through the camera. more formally devised. my relationships to the S.M. community was never highly sexualized. an utter resistance to generalization. the last thing he wanted to do was make another newman. coarsen the grid of control to set loose new elements of sensation for society/culture to deal with. the cultural formation of identity is a serious problem. wildness. you are unaware of what rules are being followed, if any. a gestural mark is likely to summon a personality type rather than call attention to wild sensation. wild perception. wild thought. "the wild." 2" x 8'. linear patterns. not so even as to be w/o event. like the cry of the gull in the vastness of the arctic tundra. titles. after the fact. not ideas for paintings. they come after the fact. the risk of not naming. it might work or not work. its always on that edge of not working. and we are all going to die. you have to take numerous variables into account. pessimism of the mind, optimism of the will. abandon critical rationality and embrace a utopian optimism of doing. ketchup. body zone outside common reality. the projects that heath makes really address reality. not images or representations of reality. artists I've worked with who trade in risk. the tank man. tienamen square. their projects often cross over the line into reality. focus on praxis. thinking and doing have to go together. there has to be a messy place where they do. to have a reason to go out into the world, I need to exhaust the past. I need to define a position for my work in relation to powers that be of technology. I was born as the me that I am, the me that I know, and that I expect to be, about six years ago. everything before was gestation, and I am really only six years old. get better at pushing from thinking to doing. I used to be good at this. oh, you really have to separate what you think of someone from what you think of their work, don't you? but someone's brilliance (or lack of it) is precisely what makes them attractive. to you, robert. thats all. see you on tuesday. class dismissed. that's all? no more questions? you are all confident that you will bring in three wonderfully interesting materials on Tuesday? all right. great. see you then. all ideas that I'm truly excited about at the moment requrie some sort of sacrifice. of my comfortable home space. of my clothes. of the integrity of my beautiful skin. of my neutrality as the artist. fitting a square peg into a round hole. tanner's advice: don't traffic in cliches, actually be an outsider artist. I think I've heard of meat and hair before. If I could figure out a form to effectively harness my writing stuff then I would be like ten times as productive. If I could figure out how to harness my writing activity I could be like ten times as productive. it is important for me to establish a range. (no, its not a shooting range I'm talking about, folks) how many people are really killed with guns anyway? is there something I could make that would be as satisfying to hold as a rifle? a pacifier for gun owners. to have and to hold to protect and cherish through sickness and health till death do us part. beuys as an ultimately self-reliant sort of man. he didn't need elaborate sculptural contrivances, he relies of the strength of direct gestures. transformations of the earth. it doesn't have to be heavily labored over to be exciting. I am sitting alone in a booth. an open-mindedness verging on idiocy. This is a call to Artists. NOMART has no Limitations. It's exciting to see you paint. I've never seen you paint before. .. Who are you talking to this term? I'm not really talking to anyone. Sometimes you have to do that. If I truly believe "everything goes" then I need to implement it in my life. I feel a little defeated. Never fully defeated, but definitely a little defeated. the secret frame. that would be great. lacie should make notebooks. maybe not. but definitely we should equate the two in a sculptural installation. let the default be the state of being. let the default become the norm. or how to philosophize with a hammer. I feel like I've been a little bit duplicitous. I don't think I'm a great writer. text hijacks language. I'd like to know what you think language is. no concept. time plurality. spring time. verdant green summer. raising a good american daughter. there is no end. this could keep going and going and going and going. thats the thing with these inhabited fantasies. america. americana. fatalistic. sense of fatility. fatalistic sense. electricity (and magnetism) Cosmoline oil for storage. lord of the flies. robert the brave. young men don't get raped. that sort of encapsulated everything so far. childhood. I feel like like I need to encapsulate everything so far to be ready to go out into the world. reverence for looking. gallery, mum. Center for Total Patient Care. beautiful little springer spaniel. I feel more like a horse these days than a deer (or a dog) somewhere between a horse and a deer, then. Shit I don't need--the wasteful life of Robert Twomey. remachining the interior. goodmachine becoming. goodmachine releasing. goodmachines interior loving mind. you don't strike me as much of a smoker. you don't strike me as much of anything. hush little baby don't you cry, daddys gone make everything all right. LINAM fault indicator. N>